Thursday 30 July 2015

When home is home no more

When home is home no more
I will cry in my heart
Let my soul tell all its pain
And my heart feel the strain

When home is home no more
I will sit in silence
And wait in the dark
And watch my soul in anguish

When home is home no more
I will miss the gone days
I will remenisce of joys past
And gaze afar of hope to come

When home is home no more
I will come to my senses
I will pick up myself
I will run............run as far as i can

Looking for Jesus,
Looking for my king,
Looking for my father,
Looking for my friend.....

Because in him i will find home
Not the surrounding
Not the people
Not the circumstance

But home! In his heart, resounding in my heart
Finally i will be home and my soul shall rest
Where home forever it will be!


Heartonsearch

Wednesday 8 July 2015

Steady My Heart

for the righteous will never be moved,he will be remembered forever. He is not afraid of bad news; his heart is firm trusting in the lord. His heart is steady ;he will not be afraid until he looks in triumph on his adversaries. He has distributed freely;he has given to the poor;his righteousness endures forever;his horn is exalted in honor............

it gets to that point when you trust what your heart feels. the other day i was reminded that i cannot trust my heart until it beats like Gods heart. many of us are walking wounded and distraught just because of trusting what our heart tells us. see this time i was sure.....i was all in....confirmations and all yet my hear in its deceit and desperate wickedness pulled me to a direction that almost cost me lots. so with love i address my heart today

Dear Heart,

I know that you are that which beats inside of me
that which causes me to hurt, and to love
to be sad and to be happy
to be moved into worship, yet at the same time be drawn to other things......
that from which the issues of my life flow out of.
yet i am also aware that you are desperately wicked,
and if not constrained you can lead me astray,
because it is  from you that my thoughts are incubated,
and emotions brewed until they flow out as actions
and i am aware that you are as fragile as a rose
  and only God can keep you at bay,
and only he can keep you safe
so i have given you to him
because i love you,
so stay in him that you may be steady and not afraid.
he will keep you from breaking and keep you pure.
i give you to him because i understand that i have no power in me to control you.

Heavenly father STEADY MY HEART!

Yours Heartonsearch