Tuesday 24 November 2015

let me be me!

i may not smile the way you want me to,
that does not make me a lesser me,

i may not laugh at the jokes you expect me to
 but that doesn't mean i do not find you funny,

when you cry i may not embrace you,
even though i care more than you think,

when i am sad i may not show it,
forgive me i am trying to protect you,

see i am me,
and he made me me,
forgive my silence the word taught me so,
forgive my walls, they made me build them,

once in a while i will take down the beauty,
once in a while i will let go of the decorum,
once in a while i will not be so strong..........

this does not mean i am not me, i am me!

i always will be me!
you have to understand that its me
and decide whether to accept me or leave!

Please let me be me


love,
HeartonSearch




Monday 23 November 2015

Today

Today i don't know where to turn
That's unusual because i always do
Today i feel the weight heavy
That's unusual because i am always able to carry it
Today i feel like no one's listening
That's ok coz either way they never do!
Today i feel tired and overwhelmed
That's unusual coz i always got it
Today if i could drive to nowhere
Or run as fast as my legs could carry me
Or dance myself to an emotional ending
I would,
But for some reason my driving seems questionable
And running too far from my reach
And songs to dance loud yet in mute
So.......
Today i will sleep
Today i will let myself cry
Today i will dream of sleeping in His loving arms
Perhaps i will be better......cause he makes all things beautiful in his time.