Thursday, 28 April 2016

Battle of the mind

Napoleon Hill said "whatever the mind can conceive and believe, the mind can achieve.

Paul in Romans 12 says " but do not be conformed to the standards of this world , but be ye transformed in the renewal of your mind"

It has been a struggle for me to get my mind, heart and emotion all in the same place" In this struggle i have learnt that whatever my heart would say my emotion would obey, but my mind, it has power. Power to make me and break me. Instances when i have woken up feeling defeated and alone and in the depths of trouble, it does not matter how much my heart and emotion felt in the opposite directions, my mind just dragged them along and before long i would find myself in a slump.

I have found myself struggling with so much and at a point where i was going to do something contrary to what i believe i got the insight and told my mind no, i was going to do the opposite and i did. Boy did it feel so good. In that small instant i felt powerful where i had felt overcome by something that was taking over all of me, my though, my emotion and all i could call me. In that instant God reminded me that it starts with my mind. Once my mind is on board it is easier to get the rest of me believing.

You know whatever it is you are struggling with you just need to make a purposeful resolve to not let it beat you. Is it a defeating health condition? Is it a struggle at work? Is it your Family? Your husband or wife? what is that condition that makes you feel defeated and lost.? that thing makes you want to stop. Well Napoleon was right......if you can think it, conceive it and believe it; you can be it.

Situations in life will come, there will be those days when you do not want to get out of bed, Those days when life seems more unfair than other days, Those days when your family members do not seem to be your greatest enemies,but you got to conceive your worth in your mind, You are valuable, you are strong, you are important. If you believe it you can be it.

Say it over and over again. I am not a master of meditation, but i believe that if you say it over and over again, it gets to the point where you can believe it, where it makes sense and where no one can do anything to change it.

I challenge us all to believe in that which you are. Especially my pessimistic friends.... do not go on the negative...believe it and you can. Yes you will!!

Help me take the Journey.

Let us train our minds, and we will be whatever we say we are because we are in our minds long before we are in appearance.


Monday, 18 April 2016

He has a way of Humbling us

In the book of Daniel there came a time that king Nebuchadnezzar had grown to the point that he was one of the most powerful kings and had subdued many nations to his rule. He had such a large store of wealth from plundering all the nations; it was so great it brought him to a place of pride. One day as he was walking on the roof of the royal palace he said “Is not this the great Babylon, which I have built by my mighty power as a royal residence and for the glory of my majesty” immediately the kingdoms departed from him.

As I meditated on these things I realized that God has a way of humbling the mightiest of men. Pride is a dangerous thing before God. His word says that he raises the humble but resists the proud. It is recorded that a proud look is among the six things that the lord hates.
In the account of Daniel, King Nebuchadnezzar became like the wild animals, He roamed the land and his hair became as that of eagles wings. I am sure the subjects of Babylon were wondering what happened to him, God spoke to him in a loud voice that he would be this way for seven periods of time (an equivalent of seven years) and after the seven years he looked up and returned the Glory to God.

It occurred to me that at times we go through certain things in our lives because of our pride. Just reflect on your personal life and think back of the many times God gave you a promotion, or a divine connection. It is my understanding that because of our sin nature we are naturally predisposed to pride even without our knowledge. We talk about our successes most of the time to stir up envy in the hearts of our listeners. Daniel had learned the secret and even after interpreting the King’s dream, He did not take the Glory. He always made sure that ALL glory went back to God. This we know because never did we hear Nebuchadnezzar the king saying Daniel had done this, or that. He always referred to the God of Daniel.

That is where we err in our hearts, we always have the tendency to build our names, that I am the best, I am the most educated, I,I,I,I, is a poisonous disease. For me God has brought me to my knees, and I am searching my heart and asking for mercy. In logical sense I might have given praise and glory to God but inwardly there might have been a tiny root of pride. God says to the prophet Isaiah that The Lord says: "These people come near to me with their mouth and honor me with their lips, but their hearts are far from me. Their worship of me is based on merely human rules they have been taught.” I am not sure but it never hurts to seek God and to put my life under the reflection of his word.

May we not be those who do things merely as rules but those who are sincerely humble that the Lord in turn will raise us up!



Wednesday, 13 April 2016

He still answers prayer

I do not know how many people still know that God answers prayer. scripture has it that whatever we ask in His name, we should ask knowing that we have received and it shall be given to us. Of late i have had a slump in my life, it seemed as though God had stopped listening but i kept praying anyway. "The effectual and fervent prayer of a righteous man avails much."  It may not be a big miracle to many, others may not even consider it a miracle but to me it was a remembrance that God still answers prayer and if He could do this He can do even the bigger things i am trusting Him for.

My pastor is always telling us that there is no dustbin for prayers. I have learned  this through various scenarios in my life.

Growing up at some point my parents had to leave the country in such of a better life for us and it reached a point that the better life was far from reach. One particular scenario we had  no food and i did not have any money. I did not want to let our nanny know that we had a problem. That month my parents sent the bare minimum to help us survive and it had run out. I did not want to stress them out understanding that they were already trying hard to just get by. So i sat in my room coiled up in a corner and cried until i could cry no more and at that point of weakness and at the end of my road i asked God to kindly provide. Immediately i felt a nudge in my spirit to walk up to the bookshelf and a leading to open a specific book and inside of it i found tucked away some money. I was so glad called our nanny gave her money and she was able to buy something and prepare a meal for us that night

Later the next year i was feeling lonely, abandoned so to speak. I was sad that my parents had left, I was struggling with ulcers and did not get enough support from my family, at some point i was even accused of pretending just to get attention. One particular day in tears i asked God to just love me, i wanted to know that i was loved and that He was there through it all, After the prayer a friend i had not talked to in a long while sent me a message and said that God loved me and that i was God's princess. That day i felt the love of God shed upon my heart as i read that message and i got the courage to move on

In campus during my second year i lacked school fees and missed my third semester exams. There was no hope of any money, i owed the school more than Kshs. 100,000 and we were just keeping up at home. I remember going into our prayer place in campus (Upper Chambers) and i asked God to provide. I reminded him that His blessing makes rich and adds no sorrow and that i had already stayed out for almost four years before finally getting to campus due to lack of money and He had promised to provide. I did go home after crying and crying for God to provide before the payment deadline, but i remember i was so much at peace that He was going to provide and i assured my parents of the same and true to it a stranger paid for my fees and i never lacked fees again until i completed campus

Recently i was so discouraged and the littlest issue was troubling my heart, we have been having a water problem for almost 3 weeks now and i was so disturbed by this because we had paid the bills and yet still we had no water. I had just spent close to 3000 to buy water and our tank was almost empty now. Two nights ago i asked God to sort out the water issue and give my heart peace. Yesterday i came back anticipating that water had come but it hadn't come. I slept really late woke up today and went about my business. Upon arrival at home today my mind was not even concentrated on the water issue and as i opened the gate i heard water filling up into the tank. To some this might seem usual but for me it lit up my heart that God is still there, He listens and He provides. He still answers prayer

I have learned that prayer should be simple, sincere and full of faith. For anything done without faith is sin. Secondly God answers prayer just on time, within time and at the right time.

Many times we pray and loose hope but scripture encourages us " But we do not belong to those who shrink back and are destroyed, but to those who have faith and are saved". It is hard to hope against all hope but if we do not cast our confidence it has a great reward for us. I know in my heart that this year is heavy for me, i need a lot of things to work out together for my good and i pray that in the midst of all God will always shine a ray of light and remind me that Yes! He is able.

For all of you who have lost hope. Hope yet again He is able. God is not dead and He still answers prayer.  Take on the attitude of Habakkuk in 3:18

                             "Though the fig tree should not blossom And there be no fruit on the vines, Though the yield of the olive should fail And the fields produce no food, Though the flock should be cut off from the fold And there be no cattle in the stalls,Yet I will exult in the LORD, I will rejoice in the God of my salvation. The Lord GOD is my strength, And He has made my feet like hinds' feet, And makes me walk on my high places. For the choir director, on my stringed instruments."

The Lord be your strength, the Lord make you walk in high places, the Lord supply all your needs according to his riches in glory. 



Thursday, 7 April 2016

heartonsearch: Perfect in weakness

heartonsearch: Perfect in weakness


I have a thousand and one words to say but none will come out,
i have trillions of thoughts and none seems to verbalise into words or tears,
my heart is steadfast oh Lord, my heart is steadfast , echoes the song of faith within my spirit,
yes faith....
the evidence of things not seen and substance of things hoped for,
the victory that hs overcome the world.
When the foundations are shaken who will stand ? Is the question pertinent in my mind for today i feel that my foundations are shaken,
yet encourage myself i will that my earthly foundation can be shaken but in Christ the rock of ages i have a house that is built on the rock,
i am the planting of the Lord,
i am that which he formed to establish,
that which is of him is forever, and i am of him because i am washed in the blood and baptized in water having His word abiding in me, and these three bear witness on earth working in agreement.
I will therefore cast not my confidence which has a great recompense and run the race set for me. Looking unto Jesus the author and perfector of my faith, for He who called is FAITHFUL!

Perfect in weakness

2 Corinthians 12:9 & 10
And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in needs, in persecutions, in distress, for Christ’s sake. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

In the previous scriptures of this chapter Paul talks about something besetting, He also says that three times he asked God that it be taken away from him but God confirmed strength in weakness.  

The purpose of this thorn in the flesh, a messenger of Satan to buffet (to hit repeatedly and with great force) him, was to “shield” Paul from being exalted by the abundance of revelations.

As I think about this I am reminded of another scripture in Galatians 4:1-4 that talks about an immature heir, and the need for governors and tutors.
Gal 3:23-25….. But before faith came, we were kept in custody under the law, being shut up to the faith which was later to be revealed.  Therefore the Law has become our tutor to lead us to Christ, so that we may be justified by faith.  But now that faith has come, we are no longer under a tutor…this reveals that maturity comes by faith; because the coming of faith abolished humanity’s need for tutors and governors.

You see Paul had already gained some insight into Christianity and life in Christ. He had attained some level of maturity and was no longer under tutors and governors. Paul was operating in great anointing and had numerous revelations of God and the heavenly kingdom. Maturity in Christ brings us to a level of recognition. I was compelled to think about this in respect to my current status.

How many Christians live their lives as though in constant combat? I have not been able to catch a full break for some time. It has been one thing after another with brief periods of recess to catch my breath. At some point I was convinced that I was living my life in sin and thus the Lord was punishing me, yet even after searching my life and repenting as convicted by the Holy Spirit things only seemed to get worse. Then today I morning God was talking to me about hope that does not disappoint ( Romans 5:3-5, 3 And not only that, but we also glory in tribulations, knowing that tribulation produces perseverance; and perseverance, character; and character, hope. Now hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out in our hearts by the Holy Spirit who was given to us.) and I felt really encouraged.

As Christians we have come out from the law of "do not" and "do" and through faith we have received the Holy spirit that helps us to walk the walk of faith. Now the revelation of faith causes us to walk in this world and not be of this world and by virtue causes us to defy the “Norms” of society. This defiance makes us earn praise because of the Lords working in our lives yet because of our fallen nature leaves us predisposed to pride and haughtiness of heart. So because of this the Lord at times allows the repeated hitting of our lives and not just repeated hitting but hitting with great force. Such a force that will constantly remind us to run back to God and to keep our lives in check. 

The easiest way in life is to give up  and throw in the towel. But we have two things;
 that our weakness is the fuel that perfects God’s strength in us 
and that all that we go through will eventually work in us hope, and this hope will never disappoint.

I am made stronger today as I close this note. It may seem painful, it may seem like it’s never going to work but a writer once said

“ A river cuts through a rock not because of its power, but because of its consistency”

So today I will try yet again, even though it is difficult I know that I will get consistency that will break my rock and that is hope and it never disappoints.

for all of us let us Keep on Keeping on